December 8, 2013

Hi. I Have a Heart Condition.

Let me tell you a fact (probably borderline flaw) about me.

I remember being asked when I was younger "If you could have any wish in the entire world what would it be?" After thinking on it for a moment, I decided that I would want every single person that has ever been a part of my life to live in one big neighborhood so that I could have everyone that I care about all at the same time, in the same place. I was pretty young when I decided that was my one wish so hopefully that gives you a glimpse of the severity of an issue I like to call "I love people to a fault."

I really truly do. I can honestly say that you probably don't love me as much as I love you because if you did you would die because your heart would burst. If people knew how much I loved them in my mind, it would probably freak them out a little. I don't just wear my heart on my sleeve, I wear my heart like a pocket that I'll stuff everyone into and keep them there forever. 

I'm being a little bit dramatic, but I just wanted to get the point across. I fall in love with people. I think that's the very best way to describe it. 

A friend once said to me "Tosh, I just love your love."

So when I came across this quote a couple of months back, I couldn't believe how true it rang. 

My heart pitter-pattered when I read this because it was like "Ok hey, soulmate quote that just spoke the words I could never put together."

Clint and I have started a tradition of getting an ornament that represents a major part of our lives the previous year. This year I decided that I needed to make one that symbolized our two homes, and I wrote the above quote on the back of it (Just a thin sharpie and an ornament if you're wondering). I never (ever!) thought I would hear myself say that I love Texas just as much as I love Utah, but I do. To think about ever leaving here pains me just as much as it did when I thought about leaving Utah. If you have been following my blog, you know how hard it is for me to be away from family and that beautiful place as a whole. But I have grown to love some absolutely amazing people here and there is not a doubt in my mind that Heavenly Father placed them all in my life because he knows of my people-loving-fault and He knows that my heart really needed these people.
Home can be wherever you are with people that you love, and you can grow to love people anywhere you go. 

Anyway to sum this all up-- Hands down the greatest blessing in my life this year has been the people here in Texas that I have met who have just cozied right up to my heart. I thank Heavenly Father every single day for all of the people that I love. I'm grateful that He knows what friendships mean to me and I'm grateful that He gave me a heart that loves so much. Sometimes too much ;)
I just really would just like a group hug right now from the entire world if that's ok. 

I hope you're all having the Merriest of Decembers. The holidays are the best! We will be heading to Utah next Saturday to visit for Christmas and we are beyond excited. (Whenever I type "beyond"I accidentally start to type "beyonce" just fyi). 

xoxo ♥
Now you know how much I love you, so don't freak out.